am i defansive?

ur dead, killed by my anger, my lazyless...

Matthew 10:39
Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

this verse also talk about my things i wan. the more i wan it, the more i am losin it, unable to complete it.

currently down due to negaive thought of not being a good Gl. wasting chunk time on skit coz i donno what to lead(spritualy-food). not able to keep my cool just bcoz i wan to win, even have intention to wack some one due to his ability and not knowin that he is actually tryin his best. how foolish i am...

i am clinkin very hard, although i know that witnessing is a process not an event, i expect quickest respond, i can't wait. where is my faith? trust for him? i am doin things by my own. just like those who elder christian who was turn down by people. pride? nice story from caleb.

there was once a man who god ask him to oush a moutaint. it did not seems to
move and the person ask god. god replied, i only ask u to push ma, leave
the movin to mi, immidetly, the moutain move to no where.

if its the me in the pass, i will say "i did my very best, i have no regrate" but i had changed. i am prayin hard to let off... this camp really taught mi alot. prise god for it. still recoverin from the sickness. i need time.

Pray for:
-mi, to recover asap
-those lost camper alvin chook, daiana, rentro, jolie, tyen chai, mei xiang, jia wei
-pray that li wen will not get down like mi

prise god, i had grown a little more

back

ta ahar... long time no come back here le. prise god for n level down, poly down, sec sch down... now still got o level people...

their relation still don seems well. friends do till read blog than noe what people going on. mi n him leh~ better keep a distance la... feeling that the closer we are, the more we will climb on each other head n not respectin each other than result in qurral. like tat not bad ma... peace n quiet from my ears. no more corruption in my mind.

all those camps are comming... pray for gl and agl to do a good jobs leading the kiddos~ sq, jona, jun, ken,victor,li zi, sher, von,lovell, hua, ange.

pray for mi claz mate hui shan, beng n song for going com-bo-dia soon~ pray for safety journy. she is down with lotsa problem. pray for god to deliver her thru...

mi bro startin pri sch soon. prepare him and keep him cheerful and hapy...

pray for mi n celeb for the meta camp next week. hope that we will learn things there and let us lead and follow christ better

pray for 13 coy. pt14,15,16,17,18,19 n office perade started and attandance is dropping. 19 n 16 seems lost. pray for guildeiance for the leaders...

all this i ask in jesus name ~...... AMeN

do-mi-no

one by one~ every one seems to b down~ possiable attack form satan. pray for all yc, x'mas comitee, leader. protact them lord~ give them strength, unity and wisdom to do a great job in this harvest time~. pray for exam: "o" n poly. health for every one. jsh n joey to have bisness. although boss is catholic, but pray that the shop will b still so that i have job. pray for retreat.

back`

hah` every thing is turn back to normal for mi. heard that "n" over liao. now prayin for their result. o is still half on their battel. this few days no contact with him(a guy) but suddely feel that world is turnin brighter. hmm... now only at solomon's son. c la... y ger lead to fall of man again. notin special just usual prayer, "o" n poly. pray for bb as perade is opening soon.

Mark 11

The Withered Fig Tree

20In the morning, as they went along, they saw the fig tree withered from the roots. 21Peter remembered and said to Jesus, "Rabbi, look! The fig tree you cursed has withered!"
22"Have[6] faith in God," Jesus answered. 23"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. 24Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. 25And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins."[7]

wwoooo..... i see light~

after dg feel batter. maybe not readin his word lead to all this... must buck up liao. exam comming for n o n poly~ pray for each others, pray for mrs yeo n mr yeo n the baby than every one may b fine, pray for leo of his spine,pray for kang, his faith, family. perade comming liao pray fopr boys n officer to do a good job. pray for youth camp, x mas party. pray for cambodia trip, pray for matamorphsy camp. pray for every one's health, family and friends~ amen~

down again

i fail my test, i qurral with my family, qurral with my friend and qurral with my BROTHer. feeling kinda down that y every thing cannot b just fine n peaceful. i am starvin for 3 week liao... is this the reason y every thing is not going right? keep hearing about stress. is it from u god? the symtoms seems to fit. pls guide me on my life... lord~ perade is comming, pls prepare mi lord~